终于

终于把“珠光宝气”看完了~
这部戏我用了三个月时间才看完~
虽然当中的剧情有些看得很闷了~
还有那没有结局的结局~
但最终还是有大团圆的结局~算不错了吧？

发现自己真的不适合这方面的事~
只会听又不会说~
说了又一团糟~
结果却把情况弄得很疆！
下次这些事不要找我了，好吗？
我负责琐碎的钱财问题就好了~可以吗？

问题

~328 Earth Hour~响应全球的熄灯一小时活动~
830-930...这段时间的你在干嘛呢?
而我,放弃了和姐姐庆祝生日的时间 ,和死党出门聚会了~
知道自己很不应该,真对不起最疼我的二姐~

一向来很了解我的ting&shia,知道驾车kayu的我根本不可能去找他们~
所以特地驾车来找我了~可惜shian没有回来~
老样子~
聊天还是用互‘炸’的方式...过瘾！
这一次3个人整整聊了3个小时~
分享着大家最近的生活~
分享着大家最近的烦恼~
真的是个开心的夜晚~
期待下一次的见面~最好是能人齐咯！

终于有时间和姐姐聊天了~
谈着谈着,才发现...原来一直以为我的家庭是个普通没有问题的家~
怎知却不知不觉地浮现出种种的问题~
婆媳之间的问题~让我这一次回来看见妈妈不耐烦的样子~
母子之间的问题~让我知道这个孩子怎么对待自己的妈妈~
还有太多列不完的问题~我能不去想吗?
随着大姨及二姨的过世,接着又是三姨的病情~
我想妈妈的心里也很害怕吧?
还有婆婆~
应该是老人病的问题~而造成我们对她的态度越来越差~
明知道自己不应该这样做,但是当时的状况真的是不能控制啊~
现在的她感觉好孤独~
在家的一天,我看见的是一大早起身的她,在家里徘徊却不知道可以做什么...
不久后又去睡觉,起身后又是在家里走走~
这样的状况应该是在她没有寄托下的生活而开始的吧~
年近82的她~身体算还蛮健壮~不需要人家照顾~可以自己烧菜洗衣~
可是,这样的生活,她得捱多久?

xun

finish assessment3...coming assessment4...haiz...
feel very tired with all the assignment & test...

i m now at hometown^^
spent around 6 hours to reach my sweet home...
my aunt called and ask my mum why i din go to visit her in Bidor...
dun noe how to answer this question actually...
i not free?
i go there for wat?
how i go therE?
dun noe la...
my sisters are very busy...cant have a chat with them...=.=
but i still same...still a night ghost even at hometown...haha~

why i still so xun?
get the license for wat? decoration?
this is wat i fren said...haiz...
when i can step out?
hope the day come...
or i should "chuang zao" this day ?

1st presentation in utar

almost 1 year din have presentation d...
this is the 1st time since i come utar...
if not wrong also the 1st time have presentation in lecture hall...
it is so nervous when is our turn...
i cant speak well at 1st...
after tat also bla bla bla only...
i noe...my performance is BAD!

mood is down these few day...
wat happen to me?

shud be rushing assignment now...
but...i dun noe how to do...
izit really is i dun noe? or i too depend on somebody?





formal look^^

should i?

haiz...
jz now,be4 i go and sleep...
keep on thinking tat should i continue my life here?
i noe it is bad...
but cant control myself...
cause too stupid of myself...geram of myself...
but...luckily...
after taking a nap, feel better now~
but ahYa still so stupid!!!

finish test

week 10 end...but we jz finsih all the mid-term test...tir3d...
p'malaysia = 9/30...walao ei...is really bad enough!
p'moral = still dun noe yet...but don think can get good result also...
discrete math = blur with the true and false statement...hope can score a satisfy result ^^

assignment time again...damm sien...
cant be rest although finish 3 assignments & 3 test...OMG *-*


hohoho...will recieve my first 21st bday'present soon^^

is h3r...

18-03-09

^^ HappY BirthDaY to mY deaR3sT t3acheR ^^

long long time din see u d...are u fine recently? how abt ur family?
always msg u but never get ur reply...
are u so busy ? with ur job ? or ur family...?
u still owe me one family photo...u still remember it?
i take from u since u born YiJia...
but now u already is 4 children ei mums d...
i still don have the picture...haha~
anyway...hope u are fine...and ur family too...
and maybe 1 day when my driving skill is better...
then i might go and find u...
also hope tat u will keep ur promise tat to attend my convocation~
but the important is if i can graduate la~ haha~

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why i writing these in here?
why i don wan to msg her?
this is bcs i noe, if i msg her i also wont get her reply...
dun noe she still remember who am i ?
nvm la...just write here...
is her...this is the person who i mention in my previous blog...
she is my ex-secondary skul's teacher...
the best teacher i had meet ^^
i like her very much...
still remember tat time really good with her...
more than the relation btw teacher & student...
and she is direct me to my new way...Thx ^^
and bcs of her...i noe there is another way to express my feeling...
tat is write it out...
today wanna call her to keng gai...but her line is busy...
maybe i call her in wrong timing...too late?
i not dare to call her, bcs i scare i will disturb her...
so it is so happy tat if i recieve her msg in 1 day...
now...waiting her msg la...



saw a sentences from newspaper...
~ when LOVE puts in, friendship is gone ~
are u agree with this ?

-17 MarCh 2009-

shud be a happy day...
but something unhappy was happen...
mood down...
blog wat? nth to blog d...
cause not a nice memory...
don wan keep in my RAM and waste the memory...
let it go...BY3...

p/s: hope u can be ok after tat...don be so lou hei...

-non-stop-

*shiu*...
finally, the non-stop assignment and test almost done ^^
left a test in coming friday...
but after tat nid to prepare for our 2 presentation d...
still got assessment 3 & 4, math assignment 2...
huh? non-stop again...haiz...
don bother it 1st...tmr go to ipoh parade cheong k...
r3laX 1st...haha ^^

today test...DI3...=.="
all the question have a lot of words...
then it is not asking in direct way...
walao...memang let us die de...haiz...

wanna put some pic...but choose and choose...
dun noe can put wat leh...
cincai la...


the cak3 in our celebration of the bday in F3b & MarCh

*** 214 ***

*** 217 ***



*** 312 ***


*** 522 ***

wat kind of cake will be next ? i noe i noe~~~
sure will be Panda Kaya Cake Without 'ye si'...haha...



is time to forc3 myself to sleep again...
96...always like this...
nitez ^^

hey , thinking of wat?

i dream a lot of thing this afternoon while i having a sleep only around 1hour...
wat am i thinking now actually...???
...dreaming...thinking...
this is -ahYa-
think something that is impossible ?
will it happen ?
too much...
think too much...
talk too much...
act too much...
wat still too much?

is ok...just give me sometime...
i will forget it soon ^^
that also -ahYa-

wat can i do except forum, facebook, email, frenster, msn & blogging...
it is boring but i still enjoy it ~ =.=''


16/3/09 - HappY BirthDaY to mY 3rd Sist3r ^^

someone bday coming soon...
a person tat very important 4 m3 ^^
a person who i like her very much ^^ (Les? I'm not~)
hop3 she is fin3...

wk's bday - 312

the day coming...
although we still so busy with our non-stop assignment+ test...
but the best buddy's bday how can be cincai leh?

our 1st plan is celebrate on 11th march after 12am...
but kar lim was suddenly sick so we postpone our plan to the next day...
as pei said, our plan is just like a treasure hunt...
we noe wk is planning to buy some accessories of his lovely DSLR, but since we don have enough budget + we cant find a good present for him...
so we decide to give him an angpow worth RM88.88~ (shud be say fews angpow gua...haha)
but...it is not so simple to get it la ^^

- start the celebration -

dun noe y...he is so noob today...(maybe bcs of someone gua)...
i insert the 1st angpow into his room...and i acidently knock his door...i think he may found out the angpow soon...
but he din *_*" after we wait and wait until cant tahan d...i msn him and try to let him noe...
but bcs of the line problem...the msg is failed...send again...waiting his response....
after he realized tat angpow...he come out and say :"Thanks!"...
=.="...wat la...din open the angpow straight say thanks ? (i noe it is normal)
but for our plan is not like that !!!
straight ask him to open the angpow 1st la~
so the game now only start!
the process i no nid to talk much...(if not will read my blog until sleep jor)

the next is as usual celebration...
sing the bday song, wish, blow candle, playing with the cake and photo tim3...

the last part tat we prepare to him is a very simple + wu liao de program...
i m the person in charge...forgot where is my idea come from...
just 1 day be4 his bday...
try to write the program with my poor C language knowledge...
after add in idea from them...
i try to finish it without add in any validation function...

feel very ji dong after he said us tat so lazy to do validation on the program...
straight become a siao po at the moment...
speak loudly to him...
but still feel dissapointed after heard it...haiz...

finally...the punish time is come...
tat is our purpose...
to make him become a da hua lian...haha...

- end of the celebration -

p/s 1: wk^^ still like to call u as wk rather than r3x...dun noe y...
just wanna tell u...
Do u found out that the syiling got 2 is in 1988 ? haha~

p/s 2: dajie,skl ^^ izit u 2 will think tat we are so unfair to u 2?
cause din prepare some special game or wat on ur bday...
sorry ya...


-tir3d day-
-ahYa-

wat this fren is ?

data structure test is over , still ok with it...bcs not so hard...
assessment 2 almost done...
my stress reduce some...
nid to thx my sifu ^^
(maybe he never admit i'm his tu di...but i still enjoy to call him so...haha...)

early in the morning, recieve call from kai ching's sister...
asking for her current roomates' contact no...
and she told me tat kai ching is kena rob while on the way go to work...
but...i feel very disappointed to myself...
why i din keep her frens' contact number ?
and now...urgent time...i dun noe wat is the way can i contact her !!!
wat this fren is?
why her sister can call me at this urgent time?
but i cant contact her by using others way ?
why i don hv any of her frens' contact no. as urgent use ???
is my wrong...
luckily she is fine lastly...but it is very troublesome to make report and redo IC or wat...

today feel very quiet...
kl sick jor...so no more his sound...haha...
dun noe why...always treat him like a child...
like a mum...keep on mumbling him...
this la...tat la...
izit this is a sign tat showing tat "ahYa is getting OLD" ?

3.10am now...
is the time to force myself to sleep...can i?

wish those whose bday is on 312 de...
HappY BirThDaY ^^
all de B3sT ^^



-ahYa-

w33kend of 38

yup33^^
finally watch "LOVE　ＭＡＴＴＥＲＳ－幸福万岁" this movie d...
long time din watch movie in cinema liao~ around half year i think...
but i don think this movie is better than others movie tat taken by Jack Neo...
although it is funny...laugh while watching this...
but i still think the older is better! haha~
anyway...still enjoy the day!

1.45pm we go ipoh...
reach there around 2.30pm something...
having lunch set with RM6.25(include tax) for a McChicken, fun-fries and coke at MCDonalds^^
we buy the ticket be4 tat...4.10pm movie...
so we walk around the jusco after our lunch and wish can find a bday present for kar lim...
at 1st, we decide to buy a sport shoes for him...because his shoes look old d...
4.10pm, it is the time for our movie, we decide to buy later after our movie show...
after the movie...we go PADINI...
i decide to buy a formal shirt for myself...
lastly i get one with original price is RM99 with RM49.50...50% discount
want to buy a skirt also...but all the skirt are too long d...
no no no...should be say...
i m too short d! haha~
shopping for around 1 hour...we cant find the shoes for kar lim...
all are branded...we don have budget...hehe
we think many thing as we can abt wat we can give him as a present~
shoes la...tie la...perfume la...clothes la...pants la...or straight away give him an "ang pow" ?
lastly...we bought a padini shirt for him~
hope he like it la...although tat is not his style^^
we have famous tauge chicken as our dinner...
last 2 times also the same~
i m the 1 din touch any tauge as well!
yup...i only eat the chicken and the rice^^

reach home around 10++pm...
feel stress after back home...
cause that is a lot of assignment and test is waiting me...sei lo...
tmr must be kut lat liao...

someone's bday is coming...
thinking his bday present...
thinking how to celebrate...
thinking... ... ... ... ...
i have extra time to think all of this ? haha...

06/03/2009

opps...found out tat my blog really many words leh...haha...
nvm... i jz mem-per-sia-shue-kan myself to keep on showing my poor english only...

friday nite, the house left 4 ppl...
another 4 going back hometown d...
raining nite, we very 'hardworking' to do assignment & homework...
jz bcs to be safety, we shut down all of our laptops...
so, nth much can do! just the homework! haha~

and i also found tat my math is getting worse...
some simple question tat use simple solution...
i make a long solution at last...why ?
izit i ald old ? or too long time din touch math?
or i really tui bu d?
haiz...

today after class meet a ls ppl+car...
a red toyota vios with plate no WLS5*4*
kns ppl! ls ppl!tmd ppl!
really make us angry except xy~
she really is a kind ppl...haha~
drive his tat ls car so near to kar lim's car...
wat a stupid ppl!
the plate no is represent this kind of ppl = 'WLS = wa lan si"
really lo! feel very beh song!

seem i should start my programming assignment d~
cause will be busy on coming week...
hope i can start it by tmr la...
nite...

改变

「心若改变，态度就会改变；态度改变，习惯就改变；习惯改变，人生就会改变。」


啊雅的心若改变，态度就会改变吗？
啊雅的态度改变，习惯就会改变吗？
啊雅的习惯改变，人生就会改变吗？

啊雅的人生要怎样改变？
改变习惯，改变态度，改变我的心...
是这样吧？

如何改变？
思考中...

<胡言乱语>

QuiZ

the day back from hometown...
decide to ask them go for a movie on Tuesday...
but unfortunately...
the data structure's quiz tat we thought is in Friday geh actually is on Wednesday!
no choice...again...the plan spoil d...
try to study at tuesday nite...
but...cant study at all...
i just read the note...din memorize anything at all...
don noe until which chapter...
dun noe how the question will look like...
dun noe wat is the time for this quiz...
apa pun dun noe lo ^^
5 % per 100% mark...
the bad thinking come over my mind...
"5% only...study so hard for wat? "
ya...this is the result...
i only noe how to answer 1 question out of 3!
and tat question i din get full mark also...
this is called "dai sie"!
after reading wk blog...only realize tat he also feel stress abt this quiz...
as the name tat we called him...
i don think he will scare wat...
wat question come out he also can do de...
but...this is the 1st time tat i feel tat he will scare ~

start from next week...study life will become busy and busy...
decide to back hometown again in this weekend...
but lastly cant get the ktm ticket to back kampong...

er...jz now seem like plan want to type wat...
but kl suddenly come and i stop it...
now...kang kang liao...haha
blog it when i remember la~

meet the fren

1.25 am now...later 7.30am bus go KL...
can i wake up later ?
i think i can...cause i have a special alarm to wake me up...haha

going back hometown this time...
meet my primary skul's frenz...
the 1st is Wan Xian & Shin Mei...
but tat just a look at opposite road...not even have chance to talk...
feel very surprise to see each others...

Wan Xian...i really long long long time din saw her d...
if not wrong is dun noe which year tat i was still in secondary skul...
just meet her once after i back from skul...
i think shud be 5years++ liao gua...
really shock!
but she doesnt change a lot...at least i still can recognize her^^hehe
but i cant even to find out where she study now or wat...
and cant get the contact number also...

Shin Mei...i had meet her while i last 2 time bek to my hometown...
i take the same bus with her when go bek KL...
we got chat a lot abt our studies in the bus...
i still can update her details through her blog...hehe~

another one is Chun Khai...
i meet him in the computer & accessories shop in my hometown...
long time din pong can tat shop...so never noe he is working at there as System Support for abt 1 year!
he had change a bit...the appearance and his impression in my mind...
he is a lazy guy when we are still in primary skul...
teacher always ask me to keep on asking him to pass up the homework...
if not i nid to report to teachers...
he always punish by the teacher bcs of his laziness...
but now...i think he had change a lot~
and he look more sun yan d...haha

jz now be4 my mum go and sleep...
she ask me: "u already sign ur doc for ptptn?"
oppss...i thought she noe my situation now...
but she don't noe at all...
haiz...we got dai gou meh ?
haiz...haiz...haiz...
izit i nid to tell them one more time tat : "I FAIL TO APPLY THE PTPTN BCS I M SO STUPID???"

无法想象！

现在的小孩子的想法真的是超越我们可以想象的~
一个只有八岁的小孩子
真的是个个子很小的二年级小孩
竟然因为被妈妈罚站在家门外而"离家出走"！
我们真的不能低估现在的"小孩子"
想像以前的我...还只是八岁的我...还是个二年级学生的我...
想都不敢想~
在家被妈妈骂的话都会很害怕的躲在房间什么的...
他竟然会自己离家出走找他人求助

躲在房间玩sdo的当儿
突然听到有客人到访的声音
愕然发现是我的表侄儿
外面下着雨，他淋着雨尝试从离我家大概1-2km左右的家，要走路来我家向我妈求助！
说求助又好像不称~
因为听了他说的话后！你只会觉得：“为什么？他到底是不是个小孩啊？”
最后是因为在途中遇到狗而误打误撞的走到我二舅家而被我表姐载来我家的
他一踏进我家...妈妈赶紧要我们给他换上衣服...
冒着雨来的他全身湿透了~
问他发生什么事？他说：“我等下再告诉你们～”
听了我都觉得心酸
看见他发抖...就连拿个杯的力气都没了...
经过我们的一番审问，他竟然说要躲在一个没人找得到的地方，还说不准我们告诉他的妈妈
其他详情就不说了


当你问他：“为什么自己跑出来？”
他说：“我不要回家！我要自己养活自己！”
当你问他：“你要怎样养活你自己？你会做工吗？”
他说：“我自己有钱！不过，我刚才出来时忘记带出来了！”
当你问他：“那你不回家你要去哪里？”
他说：“明天再打算！”

哇老！听到这些话～
我真的无法形容这个小孩了～
他因为家庭问题而变得无法无天、满嘴谎话～
你根本分不清他什么时候对你说真话或是对你撒谎
因为他说的话永远能让你相信他！
经过这一次
我真的不能再低估他了！
绝对不能！

这样的一个小孩，他的妈妈何尝不是要教好他？
该怪谁？没有人错？
不．．．我觉得是他的爸爸的错！
都是他爸爸的坏榜样！
都是他公公的坏榜样！
都是他婆婆的坏榜样！
而这一切重担却由我的表姐一个人承担
公平吗？
真替她担心～
可是我却也帮不上忙．．．